So here is the thing. LOA is what people do when they graduate from therapy. You have to go and finish CBT workbooks and be balanced emotionally before you run with the big boys and the big girls in LOA. I only manifest a few thing, mostly relating to business, because beyond that, I’m not ready for more. It’s about incremental baby steps. Focus on stress management. My gut read (MD1 dropout, 42 MCAT, which is in the 99th percentile) is that you have an issue addressable with self help CBT. I too have serious, debilitating anxiety regarding relationships and marriage. It’s so severe I couldn’t finish an LOA book on getting married because I just can’t picture it at this time. I want it, though. The point is that the rest of the people in LOA etc. don’t have serious trauma etc. so they can get right into manifesting. People like us have to work in baby steps regarding LOA while getting through very tough solo work in therapy workbooks. Don’t run before you can walk.