I was always underweight in high school (bad diet, undereating, no access to resources) but now that I'm on my own, I'm getting fat and trying to lose. But I totally get it. It's hard to "see" it. What's even worse, is that I know I need to lose some weight but I'm scared of being small. I was proud the day that I bought my first "large" shirt because the medium no longer fit. I was proud to move into a 16" neck dress shirt when I felt strangled by my old 14". When I was skinny I was always a shy and bullied kid. Now that I'm 210, I feel like I get more respect. And I'm stronger than I've ever been. But body calipers don't lie, it's all fat. It's not attractive and my body doesn't perform near as good as it used to. Ideally I need to be at 165, but I just can't even picture the thought of it. So I am in denial as well. It's really hard to lose weight when you don't even want to lose weight, or don't see extra weight as a bad thing. My diet went unchecked for 15 years, eating whatever I wanted with abandon. Mostly meat, potatoes, and pasta dishes. But I know that if I don't snap out of it, I will continue to gain weight and eventually get heart disease and die. The only time I "see" the weight is when someone takes a candid side photo of me, or if I accidentally catch my reflection in a pane of glass or something. Sometimes it catches me off guard and then I realize that large man is actually just me.