If I'm totally honest,I admit I could have written at least some important parts of this. The only thing is, the times I have behaved similarly, often the reasons either were not at all like what this assumes, or I honestly didn't realize I was doing it and wish they would have said something. And what sucks is I can't always control how many times I have contradictory thought processes, mood swings, misunderstandings, memory loss, and such bad trust issues. I wish I would not have gotten hacked. I just can't function and missed two therapy appointments already. I know I badly need help but I can't bring myself to even get ready to go out, keep putting everything off, not helping my mom enough, its like I gave up. Something inside fundamentally broke down. I don't even care about talking to anyone anymore. Friends,relationships,taking care of myself,fuck it all.Before,I had plans.