You sound a lot like me, friend. We're both young in college dealing with the sad aspects of being alone most of the time. I too am at a constant struggle with this kind of depression. I only have at least one or two friends that I hang out with, but sometimes it doesn't feel like enough. At times, I even wonder what this kind of life is worth at all. Sometimes, the best feeling you can have for yourself is that you are not alone in the battle known as life. As we get older, people will move on. Times will change, you will become a different person, and the people around will become drastically different as well. When that happens, we have to look at ourselves and think "what can I do about myself?" I also struggle with mild panic attacks whenever someone talks to me. I can't even handle being the main focus in a class such as writing or speech. We set these barriers because we're afraid of what's going to happen if we break out of them. We often look behind these barriers for help, but seldom does help ever come our way without requiring monetary assistance or other forms of requirements. Some people even get lost behind the barriers we set because we were hurt too much, we feel too much, or we lost too much. And what makes people like me so afraid to "get out there" and meet new people, or try new things is because we're afraid of what's going to happen in the long run. Will it be lost again in a short amount of time, resulting in the endless cycle of depression? Or should we move on and accept things the way they are? Nothing is ever as it seems. I've lost a great deal of friends, family, and even relationships because I could never see what would become of them. Which again, causes me to retreat back behind my barriers. The only way we can really experience life is if we break our own comfort zones, break our mentally set barriers that block us from achieving what we want to achieve. "If you really want or love something, you have to fight for it." And when something is gone, or doesn't seem like it's coming back, you can either chase after it, or you can move on to a more different and rewarding achievement. This is my psychology behind my depression. I hope things get better for you too my friend. "The darkest hour is just before the dawn." (Yeah, I know it sounds Dark Knight-ish, but it actually just have a lot of meaning.) You keep being yourself and trying to do new things. In the end, you might just be happier. Good luck, my friend.