So I find reassurance that the thoughts I am having are possibly related to OCD to be somewhat helpful in the sense that it helps me to realize I am not losing my mind. It's helpful to be mindful and aware of what is happening in my brain. Reassuring a person about each individual worry they have can become a problem though because the relief only lasts for a short period of time and then it will come back and they will need reassurance again. It will get them in a never-ending loop and likely they will never be satisfied. I found myself Googling obsessively and asking others for reassurance for months about some stuff and it was only when I stopped that that my thoughts eventually quieted down. I just kept triggering myself. If someone is actively suicidal and needs reassurance then maybe it's not so bad to provide some in a time of crisis, but without that person getting the right help in the long run they will not get better and likely worse. You might feel better about that one issue but something else will pop up. It's the tough truth about OCD.

If you cannot keep yourself safe you may need to go to the ER or talk to a mental health professional about what is going on at least. People here do understand, it's just a really tough disorder and we only have the capacity to help so much. I really hope you feel better and get the help you need.