I do have some time, even though I study a lot. But sailing is expensive. I'm at a third world country where you don't work until out of college.

Well it doesn't have to be sailing, it can be anything. Go fishing. Hike in the mountains, bicycle. it doesn't really matter what it is. Something outdoors and with some small degree of exercise.

I just don't know how to stop going after girls. I am a human being, I feel the need to have company, so I always end up messaging a bitch and getting a shitty response. Every. Single. Time. Today was just another shit day.

If you know that, and you know what happens 100% of the time, why do you keep doing it? Is it just a deep desire to have sex with someone? Is it an emotional thing? Like you're wanting to be loved? What is it you're hoping to get from these girls?

She told me: "Going to John's show today"... I thought she was too busy studying to go out until the big exam?

Women lie. That's about the only thing they're good at. Lying.

So whatever, I got a bit mad, but went to class. Philosophy class, cool, I like philosophy. Had a nice debate with the teacher.

I went to university for Philosophy myself.

I said: "Yeah, I must be stupid.", but everyone laughing at me was humiliating. Damn. What a shitty day.

Life sucks, and after university it gets much much better.