I'm using drugs and alcohol right now because I can't cope with my depression today, AMA!

Never heard of Lil Peep until earlier today. I like mostly rock/pop music.

Depends on how depressed I started off. If I use marijuana when I'm in a good/neutral mood to start with, then I feel sort of happy, but if I start off like I felt today, then it just sort of dulls that feeling into a kind of neutrality that works as long as I don't think about it too hard. Like earlier today I kept experiencing intrusive suicidal ideation, but it's pretty much stopped now. (I started taking antidepressants about a year ago, and normally they work fine, but lately I've been having a hard time, idk why.)

I'm just using marijuana (in a location where it's actually legal) and drinking wine, so I suppose not as alarming as it might sound. The wine is a pretty mediocre red blend that I picked up from the grocery store on the way home.

I'm 27 (28 in a couple weeks).

Like I mentioned above, I take antidepressants, which generally work pretty well. I've done therapy a couple times when I was in college (both group and individual). Group was okay, but I felt like I was the only one there who didn't have "real" problems; I didn't like individual therapy that much because it seemed to focus more on "let's continually rehash your traumatic experiences" instead of how to get over it.

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