I'm 27 and..... yeah suffering and so on is a thing, but much more is the fear that even with 30+ life feels still like there is no place for me and at the moment.... everything around me looks just up to the end of my live around minimum wage and fulltime/unpaid overtime just so I maybe could survive but I'm not supossed to get any of the nice things.
No money for vacation, no option to save money and everything around becomes more expensive, while the real options to earn more isnt realy there, any kind of job in my reach is for the next five years due bankcruptcy reduced of the part the "left" me, doesnt matter how much I realy ear. Tax, pseudo healtcare and retirement payments in combination with the higher distraint will keep me effectly under minimum wage up to my 32 year. And I'm not allowed to form up savings. From my 32 birthday on I may keep more from my salary, but still I'm at this time with a small appartment, the rent will probaly rise, I have no savings, no car, nothing, just "survived" and my retirement account would still be under the basic payout if I could be employed up to my sixty-ninth year of life. Its already impossible at the moment to get somewhere else.... "normal" pay would only be a thing with much higher debt and degree.....
At the moment I'm not sure for what I should still go on, as long as I knew it wouldnt become realy better... there isnt realy a option to make it better step by step. Where is the whole meaning in there to work everyday up to the point of total exhaustion, so the spare free time on the weekend I'm all the time tired up to the point I'm not realy able to do anything. So I'm not even sure if live would be better even if I got more income....because I'm all the time nearly exhausted, that even buying groceries is nearly to mcuh for me. And still I'm not sure if the jobs I could maybe have in reach would pay in 5 years or more enougth to keep my appartmen.
Still now I couldnt survive with the help of my parents... I have already cutted anything.... no car, my bycycle have now nearly 70k km and I have already repaired several parts because they were compeltly grinded.... at the moment I even struggle to get some clothes due the weightloss the last two years....everything is to big what I have and I need slim fit extra long pants and shirts and they also expensive. God damm.... I'm not sure how should it become better. As much more if I think about, that my small salary is already over the averange here and there are only two more positions over me in the company and they are both saved for the next 10 years for other coworkers.
I have already over 70 rejections to get a new apprenticeship and much more unanswered applications so I maybe use the time under bankcruptcy to may get a new degree that is highly needed in the area where I live. But mostly the tell me I'm to old, my degree is to high, or they do not search a male for the position..... or just no answer. Even moving isnt an option... I havent the money to move, I havent the money for a deposit to rent a appartment somewhere else and most of the landlords do not want to rent on somebody how have to filed for bankcruptcy.... while I'm also not alloed to join the military, polive or any other goverment related job due the bankcruptcy.... it doesnt matter those debt were used to pay for my degree and I have to filed for bankcruptcy due ashort time where I didnt have the income to pay it.
I'm not allowed as cashier at McDonalds.... >_<