Started this year with my fiance straight up blacked out drunk cheating on me with a random stranger while I waited outside of a bar to pick them up. That was at 2 am on January 1st. She got in the car with them and I ended up picking them up at a hospital 5 hours later and then going to work. The rest of the year has been spent going through the phases of forgiveness and managing living with someone with a heavy drinking problem and borderline personality disorder. They are on medication for it and the medication isn't a perfect fix. They still drink and about 2-3 times a week they become wildly drunk and I am prevented from sleep (the apartment is about a 500 square foot pad). Sometimes I sleep in my car because the couch isn't entirely safe. I have developed severe anxiety issues around anyone who drinks now and I am now also battling addiction. My drinking isn't massive excess but a shot or one beer every other night is still a problem because I do it to try and escape or dull the pain and anxiety I feel when they drink.