No it is reverse case for me. I try to eject some “friends” from my life to make my life simpler. I put “friends” in reverse comas because I see those people as people with whom I might share our past, as randomness or fortune bound us, but I can’t feel the essence of our relationship or future of it. I don’t want to be it just habit or something like it, I want to feel the heart of our relationship/friendship but I honestly can’t. So now I try to cut it off, but those people keep try to come to me and keep friendship alive, they insist on it.

And I am in conflict because it feels like they are making it out of duty, or habit, without soul and heart, yet I must ask myself – why do they persist?

They like me, I know that, but I don’t feel seen/understood by them. And that makes me repulse from them.

I don’t know, if you have advice for me, please write it down.

Nevertheless, I am writing this “a bit” drunk and I might delete this comment later. It is just that you hit on something I am bothered lately. I need advice but I don’t want to ask anybody (that I personally know) for it. Probably I am too deep in Ni-Ti loop again.

Sorry for the rant anyway.