I was only married 2 years before I realized, similar to you, that I had actually given up slowly all the things that made me feel whole, all of me, to fit with my STBX. It is extremely difficult to let go of my marriage, to think about waking up without him. However, I no longer want to feel depressed or anxious because I feel trapped being with someone that does not enjoy or appreciate the things that I like. He will also not make an effort. I think that that peace of my mind and freedom will bring me the happiness and stability I really desire.

I identify so much with you because I also uprooted my life and moved across the country with him. I am now in a place where I don't know anyone more than my STBX and my friends and family are 3000 miles away. I have started taking trips to the library and reading more, I've joined Meetups to meet other people, and I am trying new things. It is so difficult to get out of my shell, but I am pushing myself everyday to learn to do things on my own.