I've been suicidal since starting HRT. My entire life is a disaster. Every single small bit of who I was or was pretending to be ended up like that scene from shutter Island where his wife is burning and dead. Everything is hell. The depression is so thick in my mouth I bite through my lips and it tastes like metal and I spit blood into the sink wondering why the fuck I keep myself alive. Why do I force feed? More important, why do I starve myself?

For me, it's been hell and estrogen has only made that hell more moody, depressed, anxious, angry, hype irritable.

I'm like major depressed or I'm PTSD. It was worse on the pills before injection.