Most of the stuff is same in you and me. But in me it's not genetic. It got triggered when dad died. He was the sole driving reason for my studies. After he died, there was nothing I wanted to do. First ADHD, then OCD, all along with depression and bipolar. But I somehow overcame them also with the warning of relapse by doctor. I now have severe anxiety, no/low social skills. Wasted my precious time from 10th. I had 22 backlogs as well. Cleared 18. But it seems it'll take 6th year of btech to clear rest. One difference also is you had/have many friends. I was cooped up in a room most of the time, I bathed. Lastly, I seriously don't know how I will improve career wise. This b.tech degree(tier 3 college) seems to be a waste even if I clear my backlogs. We aren't that rich, heck, barely surviving in this lockdown. I am not seeing a way out even now. And lithium do fuc* things up, but doctor keeps the narrative that it isn't bad.