I’m with you. I hate to admit that I had an affair with a narc. I look at my past and I had a 2 year relationship, a 3 year relationship, a 4 year relationship, and I’ve been with my husband for almost 6 years (though 5 when the narc came into my life) without incident and it’s not like guys didn’t try to get with me while I was in other relationships, and so I know it’s not my character and I was heavily manipulated and groomed for 8-9 months before I gave in. Think of me what you will, but just here to say it’s been over with the narc for almost a year and my body shuts down anytime my husband touches me. I have no desire whatsoever. It sucks because I’m young-ish (32) and I feel like I’m wasting my so-called sexual prime. I hope it gets better for you.