i used to have great fear of death ....

you are now .. now is forever .... now will always have existed once you are gone ....

( you were lied to ... you do not get a choice to not die .... that is what you are fighting .. there is some brainwashing you got to iron out ... it is there ... you fear death because you have been told forever mostliky that you get to choose .... it is a hard thing to let go and is one of the last things when you are an athisist .... go watch lots of animal documentaries ... go be a an animal go see how they see the universe and it will refresh the way you see the world .... go watch the mama bird take care of her babies .... she will die ... but she is there adding to life so life can continue ... life is very less selfish than we think ... l

let me recommend the bbc stuff it is beautiful and very fulfilling ...

Life continues when we die ... life does not end .... we are part of that life and that life will continue ... add to the life around you to help keeping life going ....

worry less about dying and try to focus on life ....

go play games and have fun forget your problems for a moment feel the joy of the hunt ... then realize how fun life really is .... it is not what you are going to lose ... it is what you have now ...

let me tell you about me ... i have had depression .. i have the same problems .. but i also had a weird medical condition adding to it all ..... it was suffreing from real cronic pain that i some how learnd to supress my entire fucking life .. one of my greatest fears was dying with fear ... that is because i was in soooo much pain that if life is this hard then death must really really suck .....

i got out of some of my depression before i found out about the pain and geting physical therapy now ....

but the things i listed above really helped in trying to see the univers diffrently ... i had to undo christian brainwashing that we get a choice to live forever ... life is not a cheap video game you do not get a free life for 25 cents ....