Believe me, you do not want tuberculosis at all. Probably one of the worst ways you can die, illness-wise. Plus you have to avoid your family, friends and strangers due to the risk of spreading it. Imagine infecting a family member, having know way to know about it, and then years later they started having symptoms.
I've been very ill, recently. Same kind of stuff. Severe chest pain (and I mean severe, I already have chronic pain and this pain outweighs it heavily) non-productive cough for about two months, barely breathing enough, going out into the cold makes my chest burn and I can't breathe at all, this terrible chill where it feels like I'm full of ice yet my body temperature is normal.
It's pretty shit, but I honestly don't want to go to the doctors. I had to have an echocardiogram for a separate issue about a month back and the person had an awful lot of trouble actually seeing my heart in places. I'm not sure if that even means anything health-wise but again, I don't care to check it out.
Probably sound stupid. Hell, I AM stupid. I know I should go to the hospital. It wouldn't cost me anything. But I just don't want to, y'know? I can't explain it.
Earlier this year I was rushed into hospital with severe blood loss. Couldn't stand up for longer than three seconds without falling over, kept throwing up black coffee-ground stuff (later found out it was blood) and on the third day I just wanted to go to sleep. My family instead came around and decided that I needed the hospital immediately, so they rushed me there.
Turns out I'd lost approximately two thirds of my blood. If I'd gone to sleep that day, I wouldn't have woken up. Turns out internal bleeding just sneaks up on you like that.
But honestly? My first thought when I heard that about the going to sleep situation was, "hey, that doesn't sound too bad".
I don't want to die. I'm not suicidal. I'm not depressed. I just feel... content, y'know? I haven't been around for too long in the grand scheme of things but I feel I've seen everything I want to see.
Don't mean to hijack your post or anything, OP. Just having the same type of situation and well, I haven't spoken about this stuff to anyone before.
Hell, I'll probably delete this in five minutes anyway. Haha.