I've finally decided to kill myself

this made me sad. i feel the same way. i youtubed a bunch of philosophy to help with the pain. its hard. i worked 14 hour shifts to block out reality. i never post anything on reddit until tonight. i feel your pain. it makes me so...i dont know the word. a mix between sadness and clarity. as a kid i was such a big proponent of unfit parents not having children. im weak. why would i be allowed. loving yourself is the first step. your mind is in a constant loop. telling yourself youre useless. youre not worthy of anything. it repeats over snd over. everyday without fail. but understand. the mind is complex. it trained itself to notice negativity and express it either through speech or action. the bright side to that is that if you can loop negativity, the cure is to loop positivity. tell yourself lifes worth living. everyday. even if its just for a fleeting moment. that moment will then turn into many moments. and hopefully one day turn your mindstate 180 degrees. im not there. i wish i was. but i wish you the best of luck. practice makes perfect. so dont beat yourself down if yoh dont perfect it instantly. goodluck i love you.

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