I've had an eating disorder for 15 years. I'm about to turn 30 and I don't know how much time I have left.

If anyone is curious, I can go deeper into the physical effects it's had on my body, but want to keep it to a more psychological effect for now. It's so painful to the point where it becomes difficult to accept, but I want to potentially create awareness to those who have fallen into this disorder and I hope to be of some help to anyone here experiencing it likewise. By far it has been the most difficult struggle in my entire lifetime, so far surpassing my college years experiences where I was unable to afford food for days on top of having this disorder. On the other end of the spectrum I have also invested thousands of dollars to support this "habit" for lack of another term knowing damn well there are millions of people on this planet who are not able to afford or provide a day's worth of food to themselves hence why I call it so selfish on my part.

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