Look man I feel you. I did lose it all. I lost my career…my wife is filling for divorce….etc. this shit isn’t worth it man. What I would do to do things so differently. But I can’t and here I am trying to pick up the pieces. I’m 3 weeks completely sober today and attended my first AA meeting Monday night which was extremely therapeutic for me. Keep fighting the fight. You can do it. We can all do it. It’s hard as fuck absolutely but it’s not worth losing the ones you love my man. Keep your chin up and just remember people that don’t have addiction issues more times than not will never understand addicts. But I take pride in being a warrior and wanting better for myself. Stay strong and take 1 day at a time my man