I've watched some messed up porn. Nearly suicidal with guilt.

I'm attracted to adults of all genders. I'm not interested in children in the slightest, and I don't even watch anything borderline. I'm not into animals either. It's more that watching women do horrible things with animals made me feel like I had a connection with them, because I have no self-worth at all. I feel disgusting. I've taken a lot of risks in my life and they've all turned out poorly, and I feel ineffective at making good changes for myself. I can connect with someone who does disgusting or terrible things, because I feel disgusting and terrible. I can't relate to porn with a loving, normal couple. Because I believe that's beyond me at this point.

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