That kind of pain is unimaginable for anyone who hasn't experienced it. I'm so sorry, and no matter where your faith stands, I hope you find peace with it all. My mother has had multiple experiences witnessing orbs in real time (since before orbs were a well-known phenomenon). She has always said that there's no sound from them, but that they seem intelligent and communicate nonetheless. She doesn't seem to think they're all of the same nature - and at least one incident I know of really scared her. I've never seen them with my naked eye and I used to think they were explainable and really kind of simple bs, but the older I get the more I question. Thank you for sharing this!