I spent the last 2 years working for this startup who had basically zero plan, just shooting from the hip every month. I'm a new programmer since 2 years ago, formerly an engineer working for the DoD which was fucking miserable... I cynically moved to this path so I could date in NYC and have a nice lazy lifestyle and just try to enjoy things. Problem is I'm isolated and lonely quite a bit here, hard to make new friends for me for... reasons.

I've been seeing this girl who I'm really attracted to. Met on okcupid. She's basically pushed my romantic overtures aside and has turned me into a pretty casual friendly bangable mate for herself. I am ok with this. She's hilarious and sexy but we kinda speak different languages. I'm secretly and desperately trying not to fuck it all up and just enjoy the ride.

So life has turned pretty good here. I hate to go all corny gratitude but reading TLP put me on this path and it feels pretty good now that I think about it. There was some time wasted obsessing over his posts but putting his shit in practice helped life immensely, no joke.

Still taking an SSRI but the hopeless desperate loneliness I used to suffer has taken a backseat for now.