You've known for a while, but you just kept pushing to the back. There's not enough time to pause & besides, you're think you may have forgotten to eat vegetables for three or four days.

You had some spinach just now, but if that doesn't do it, you can push in the morning. Maybe the wine will break down the indigestible bits somewhat, like cola dissolves the sinew in steak.

But you can't remember any of that. Not now. Not now you are breathing through the pain, but that's also a break from bearing down. You bend over & peer between your legs. Dear God it is huge and is that skin stretched around it? OH GOD IT IS.

Why did you start this?

There are razors here, narcotics there. A braided cable by the window. You shake your head back into focus - there are no poop knives here (thank god).

Thank god indeed - you'll need your mythical deities to get through this.