It does seem like she's recalling distinct memories of multiple years dreading Father's Day. That is really odd. She wrote a rather long post last year on Mother's Day about anticipating how "weird" and "awkward" Father's Day would be for her. (Rather than writing anything kind about Cathy, but that's a side issue.) You'd think she'd remember composing this post in Florida, not NY?

I, for one, am going to feel awkward as fuuuuuuck on Father’s Day when everyone else is like, Thank you for being the best Dad ever!!! And I’m like!!!! Let me tell you about the complex guilt I felt when my father ~completed~ suicide because I felt ashamed for being happy that he wasn’t in so much pain anymore and I felt relieved that I no longer had to feel self-burdened with the responsibility of saving him when he did not want to save himself!!!!!!! But hopefully by being honest and brave in this way, it will make other people feel like it’s okay to speak up about their imperfect families, too.

What's it like to fancy yourself a memoirist and have some random snark bird remember your life better than you do?