Just became 'kind of' a vegetarian.

OP, your story intrigued me so I read through your post history.

I have to be honest, you seem to be suffering from some sort of psychological disconnect, whether it be psychosis, delirium, or schizophrenia.

I strongly urge you to seek professional help. The experiences that you are reporting are not mystical, magical, or meaningful.

Your mental health has been compromised and people will take advantage of that.

Which seems more likely, that you had a drug fueled mystical experience 20 years ago that has given you magical powers to influence patterns, energies, read into the future, and other fantastic abilities, or that you took drugs 20 years ago that fucked up your head?

Please, for your family's sake and for your own... Stop looking for answers in mysticism, Kundalini, and other fringe ideologies.

Speak with a psychiatrist about your experiences. There is nothing shameful about mental illness, and you need help.

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