My care setup got me new ID and all, they're really supportive....

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TBH, I'm not certain if I have DID, it was suggested to me by a professional once because I dissociated for about 10 years trying to cope with PTSD trauma to the point it became it's own person (at the start 3 extra "people") who was as male as my mind could make (it became a computer engineer) to cope and be safe, hiding myself.

I now can't easily use technology without very quickly losing myself for an hour or two.

It wrote me a letter once saying that it should die and stop protecting me because it's not needed and just harms everything asking to let me take over....

Now occasionally I go back to being that person / state of mind, mostly because I can no longer cope with life or have touched a computer (this is the worst age to live in with that trigger!!).

I still haven't cried and woken up to what has happened yet, I'm just being protected from feeling by the more male self.

Also my protection self is diagnosable as asperges but I'm not ...

I can't tell if this is PTSD or PTSD + DID (or another dissociative disorder...) Life is very confusing....