How sad, I'm sorry you have had this happen to you. I feel like I may be in the same boat. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. It was all just a game, his game. Everything, was mere induendos, whispers of a great love. It was onesided. I loved him, still do its unbarable. I hate how I have to play for everyone, just in hopes he might show up. I play my heart out, for what he's never going to reach out. It's all just amuzing to him and his friends. Oh pain, what's it mean, what lesson was this suppose to shed lught on. What, more how do I come back from such a thing. My heart hurts, it's sore. I just felt it to my core. I guess my head was right... I guess 2016 isn't our time. Farewell thee well hear beat. I will retreat you will not be hindered by my presence tonight. I will not play your game. I will not dance as others make comments which are criptic, yet I see. I choose to be ignore the hurt. The obvious chuckles directed at me.. my heart will be ok, some day. Just not today. Wish we could of atleast had a one on one. A conversation between two adults. It would of been nice to get perspective of such a spectical. Heart and soul, let it be. Please don't prolong this agony. He's hers. Actions do speak louder and there is no action of his to make it known by me he ever wished for anything other then being flattered and playing tunes that would make anyone swoon. Silly girl, never ment for you. ....

Sorry, once I started my reply it went from feeling for you. To releasing my thoughts regarding my pain. I know your not my heart beat so I apologize for letting it out that way..

Hugs stranger, I wish we both find are happy soon. I need my beat to breath but I guess I'll have to find an alternative to breathing then.. or maybe I'll just stop all together and. No, never. Just wish I'd understand, why, wish I understood my heart a souls lie.. ... take care, it will get better it has too... ♡