I can’t really wrap my head around suicide. It makes me terribly sad that someone could be in a situation that would cause them to make that decision, whether it is depression or physical disability or a combination of the two, it’s sad and scary as hell to me. I truly can’t relate and I feel to understand such a thing you need to be able to relate or at least have some professional experience in the area but i do know makes me confused and extremely sad. I know this as someone who struggles with depression and the constant internal search for betterment, so I can comprehend on that level that someone’s search has become so hopeless that extreme measures are the only next step.

That all being said I have a ton of respect for your choice to delay on account of the love you have for your parents. That is admirable. Being in a place where suicide is your best option yet having the fortitude to delay action due to the love you bear for others is remarkable and saddening. I think every person with love in their heart is an extremely valuable asset to society, making you a remarkably valuable asset and I’m sad that we may one day lose you.

Damn this makes me sad. I hope that you can find some level of comfort and happiness despite your pain, which I assume at this point is beyond significant improvement. I know your parents are lucky to have you as a son/daughter. I’m gonna hug my parents tomorrow. If you ever want to talk please feel free to DM me, I would truly enjoy speaking with you.