Staying strong as best as I can. Every day is just so so so much worse than the last. He reaches out to me or asks me to come see him only to make every interaction as negative and awful as possible so he can blame me for everything when I eventually start to react like I'm hurt by his words. No matter how nice I am. No matter how understanding and painfully hard I try to listen to everything he says. No matter how well I try to word anything or explain how his tone and the way he says something to me is so blatantly rude and uncalled for. It hurts me deeply.

Just to watch him turn around and act like a perfectly normal person to his best friend or his brother when they stop by for a bit. He capable of wording things in a way that doesn't hurt people and makes them feel respected and wanted. He just doesn't care when it comes to me anymore.

I just feel like I need to find a therapist for myself at this point. Sorry for the long reply. I'm just having a really hard night tonight.