I just want to be loved by opposite gender

I didn't date, kiss, do anything sexual until 19...meet my ex and we talked, danced, and made-out when I was closing my parent's store...we then had sex and it was the first time for both of us....btw she said she was 17 trunks out she just turned 16...I found that out shortly after and didn't know what to do besides just try my best to be a good boyfriend which I failed out and she failed at being a good girlfriend too we just weren't ment for each despite trying for three years...been with my correct partner for over a decade now and we have grown some what apart, but I feel too old and too awkward to date anyone else even tho we had an open relationship for awhile and she dated five other guys almost all were out friends before.

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