Hi, I don’t know if it’s appropriate for me to comment as I myself am not ex Mormon so I can delete if you want. But my grandfather was raised Mormon and our family also had a heritage going back to the pilgrimage, he left the church shortly before having my mom so my mom was never raised Mormon and neither was I but the rest of my family was and I am so grateful he made that decision. I’m gay and one of my Mormon cousins is as well, we are both adults but the level of him having to hide himself from his parents is so sad to see. They keep saying he is just looking for the right girl, and when he was with his precious partner (a relationship of 8 years) the entire time he presenting him as his roommate and would still go on dates with women his dad set up for him. I can see so much pain in him when they talk about how he just needs to start a family because he wants one but with a man not a woman. I feel so grateful to my grandpa that we weren’t raised in that and that I can openly love who I want. So I don’t know if this helps but I’m just trying to say I know leaving the church can be hard (my grandpa had extreme guilt over it) but it effected generations of his family positively. Good luck and hail yourself!