First of all, what? This is a forum for aspergers, that was a quizlet for aspergers (which I answered accurately, I am not stupid), and I am a person diagnosed with aspergers.

My motivations were clearly to find people who had similar experiences or could support me in some way, and I thought that was one of the purposes of this sub. I thought I might find some "answers about myself" as you said if I had some way to quantify and break down the different parts of my ASD, but I guess you took that as attention seeking or trying to play the victim which I think says a lot about you and not so much about me. I have been through the tests you refer to many years ago and at the time they were not discussed or explained to me by my parents, nor were they talked about until a few days ago. I did not know that aspergers was even related to autism until about a year or two ago.

I became self aware recently since my life fell apart and I will be on my own soon, and I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that I have had a disability affecting me and didn't know anything about it. It is pretty much irrelevant if I am schizophrenic or not by the way (even if symptoms are shared with ASD), because this is an aspergers sub and I am discussing my aspergers symptoms. As for specialized treatment, I cannot save money because so far I cannot keep a job without panicking, shutting down and fucking everything up. But I am obviously seeking any therapist my insurance will cover.

And no, I do not want to be autistic. Thank you for being such an asshole though. Maybe you could give people the benefit of the doubt in the future, especially on a sub for a disability that effects communication.