I am diagnosed with anxiety disorder

Spoken like someone who has no idea about how an anxiety order works. If people could choose the stuff they got anxious about it wouldn't be a problem for most of them. Games, real life, doesn't matter, anxiety loves to be an ass. "The worst that can happen" isn't rational. Your brain makes up all sorts of unrealistic worst case scenarios.

With that being said, I agree that the attention seeking is bad and a terrible coping mechanism, and usually only makes the whole situation worse. I've acted like that too at times and it only makes things worse. As much as it can suck to feel like that, you just have to take things as they come and try to act as normal as possible, that's the best way for everyone, and especially for yourself to get better.