I want to respond to this because I feel very similar to you and now at the age of 37 and with lots of therapy, I understand it better. This story will likely repeat itself but with different men. It’s more indicative of how you feel about yourself than an isolated event with a guy. He’s a player obviously and you sound like a nice person who wants a connection. Players have problems of their own and when you said he dated a model I wanted to barf lol. But I think you might want to focus on your self esteem. Not just feeling good about yourself, but investing more of your time thoughts and energy into yourself. So that you can recognize your value and what your values are and make decisions accordingly. I’m not gonna lie, I’m pretty sex positive and open to hookups but I don’t actually have the emotional strength to do so. All of my gf’s are really strong and have good relationships and would never download Snapchat to share nudes (but I would and I’m always a mess lol). And tbh when you find someone more charming (good or bad), you’ll be surprised how fast that flip will switch.