Fuck man. I thought this was some sick joke. I recognized the name since I checked my bets against yours a few days ago. Seriously, this is a joke right? Just look at the comments on this post. Most are money grabbing mother fuckers, but there are some people who genuinely give a shit about another person. Depression is some fucked up shit, and I know personally what it can do to someone as I've been struggling with it for years. You gotta open your eyes and see that people care. I know what it feels like to think that nobody cares, and I know that it's utter bullshit thinking. People do care, even if they don't show it. People WILL mourn if you commit suicide, I sure as hell don't wanna lose someone from this community. Killing yourself is not the way to go about things. You don't want your mark in this world to be a sad one.
Suicide is not a matter to be taken lightly. You say you want to make some people happy but nobody will be happy about getting shit knowing that the guy died giving them that stuff. Know that saying? You gotta make yourself happy before you can make someone else happy. There are resources to help you get there. You just gotta make the effort to get there. Remember, there IS no easy way out. You mentioned death and break ups. If someone's death is making you depressed, think about how you'd be making others feel if someone they knew died. You know the feeling, so why do you think they wouldn't feel the same way about you? And break ups. I broke up with my girlfriend a few months ago and that was an 8 month relationship. Not long by any means, but it surely wasn't just a quick fling. It stung for a while. You've got to remember that you CAN be happy without them. You need to get back into your regular routine. You have to do things to remind yourself that they weren't the only thing that made you happy.
Just remember man, people can care about others, even if they've never known them. Hell, I'm writing all this shit down for a stranger on the internet I've never even talked to, and I hate to say it but my bitch ass is tearing up a bit. Don't do this man, losing a life to depression is a terrible thing, people are here to help, you just have to let them help.