It's kind of nice to see someone I can relate to. I had both a miscarriage and an ectopic pregnancy at 5 weeks last week. It would've been twins, I've always loved twins. I didn't even know I was pregnant either. I had what I thought was a bad two week period with cramps and passed a thick big pregnancy tissue. I coincidentally had a blood test the week before and every blood test they always administer a pregnancy test. I got a call saying I was pregnant, but I told them I couldn't be pregnant since I was on my period. I had to go to the er to get my Fallopian tube removed, remove an ovarian cyst and to remove the extra miscarriage tissue. I spent three days in the hospital. If I hadn't coincidentally gotten that test my surgeon said I would've died. My partner is currently is working a job across the world in a different time zone so it's hard to even talk to him day to day especially with his job being super stressful and busy. I was healthy too. I'm not sure why I had a miscarriage and I didn't want kids, but man it just sucks. Listening to my friends say this is the best person it could happen to also sucks. I know they mean that I'm strong and didn't want kids but it still just sucks. I would've like the option in the future. I'm so young and I can change my mind. I'm just scared it'll happen again. I'm more likely to get another ectopic pregnancy, but I only have one Fallopian tube left. I'm just scared of getting pregnant again. What if this happens again? Next time there won't be a coincidental blood test to save my life and I don't think I can handle the loss of another baby. I honestly try to distance myself from the fact I was pregnant as much as possible. I'm just tired and I wish I wasn't so alone dealing with this.