In hind sight, not well. I was cute but he was a total catch. I felt like I hit the jackpot. 6’2, handsome, ambitious, smart, kind to others, cooked healthy, gym, had leadership position in a Frat at his college, ect.

I always tried to impress and relate to him and look my prettiest. I often felt dumb when I didn’t measure up to his high standard of life. I do art, his art was much better. I felt embarrassed that I was struggling financially as I started my career while he was successful in a university and going to come out of it with a high paying job. I held back a lot of myself because of feeling like I wasn’t as good as he was. I bent over backwards to try and be a good girlfriend for him and put his wants and needs on a pedestal.

I often felt like a burden on him due to how he treated me, but I was okay with it because he was such a catch and was not hurtful on purpose! I didn’t worry about him looking at other girls, but he was with a lot of beautiful women in the sororities and I would compare myself to their FB photos and wonder if they had dated. He eventually broke up with me by texting saying he didn’t think it was fair to him, or me, to try and continue dating. I didn’t see it coming at all. He never talked to me again.

I think he dated me out of convenience, not because he was ever that into me.

I have learned a lot about myself from reflecting on that relationship through the years. I feel the biggest take away is how to be confidently myself with everyone and attractiveness is subjective. I found out after we broke up, my friends thought he was cute but boring!