many days i wake up feeling lonely too, wondering what's the point? And this feeling only got alot worse when I had a pretty intense s h r o o m trip a while back. But recently ive been seeing things differently, feeling things differently. i think ive really just come to terms with my own insignificance, and the insignificance of those around me. Ive accepted it. And since ive done that, Ive been able to look past it and just live day by day, because now, even though I may be fully aware that there's no point, at least I know that there's no point for everyone, ya know? Like were all in this together, at the same time, just going along, all parts of the world, all the time. And were just one world. Just one tiny thing going on in space ya know? These days I feel more awe inspired than ever. Im really just so glad to be here, just to know that this is all here. Sometimes it's very overwhelming to think about, but it its all that helps. the fact that im on a computer, that i can play videogames, immerse myself in virtual worlds created by us, go outside, bike, skate, drive, smoke trees, use phsychadelics, change my state of mind, leave my body, all of these things i have learned to appreciate so much more now. And I think now, ironicly, it seems that the question of 'why are we here?' is not what's making me sad, but rather what's pushing me forward, because after seeing all that I have seen, feeling all that I felt, I cannot believe that we are just here, that we just exist. I believe there is something behind it, not a god or any of that stuff that humans came up with, but maybe a force, or an essence, or something that binds everything in this universe together, because to me, it would just be so darn sad if there was truly nothing behind it all. anyways, im just rambling, but this act of rambling embodies how I feel, which is the feeling of existence, of being, a feeling that I cannot describe through words.