Leaving the Army—don’t fail at living

Yes. It's like an emotional hallucination. I spent over a month feeling like a zombie with insane headaches, and would almost pass out when I stood up. I've always dealt with feeling like I'm a fraud even though people think I do good things, but this is different. My heart will start beating 120bpm for no reason while I'm playing a game or watching TV, and then my brain starts throwing reasons at it to make it make sense. Fucked up thoughts about my world ending start coming out of nowhere. I get extreme brain fog where I can't really even speak, and almost had a meltdown trying to brief a working group. My wife is the only reason we were able to PCS. Tylenol seems to stop some of the anxiety, which makes me think it's inflammation related. It's radically different from anything I've felt. I just moved, and have access to military support systems, will be seeing a doctor this week.

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