Leaving but wait not leaving (a kind of update)

I second what myexsparamour said.

I’m the kind of “crippled” depressed person sometimes. When it’s really bad, I start doing badly at work, I cry pretty much all the time, can barely get out of bed, I dream of having a car hit me when I cross the street. The rest of the time it’s normal days, sometimes I cry myself to sleep, sometimes I feel like dying, but mostly, life is just meh.

My partner is the high functioning depressed person who still does a stellar job at work, manages himself well, is always put together, never loses it, and would tell me he’s probably better off dead with a shrug and a small smile.

It shows up differently for every one of us, from a dull ache to an excruciating pain, but it’s there, all the damn time.

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