Dad here. Just had my first boy about 24 hours ago, literally writing this from the hospital.

I'm in tears. You did the right thing. From the moment my son entered the world and I saw him I knew I would protect him and give my life for him.

When you are recovered, take a close look how your new partner acts around your kid. Always have someone close to help while you get to know someone new, especially when you introduce them to your child.

Go see a therapist. It helps. Even if you don't feel the need - it might backfire, as you are extremely vulnerable at the moment. Go and find and meet other moms! Usually some yoga or pilates courses for mum&baby will be a good start.

Stay strong!