Let them go

Wishing you strength in whatever happens. I felt a lot of the ways you felt, severe depression. It was honestly the worse I’ve ever felt in my life and I’ve been through some major shit. I was and am constantly healing and it all comes and goes.. some days are good.. some days I still find myself missing him and feeling so sad and disappointed that I have all my shit together but I was the one left.. it’s a hard pill to swallow when you can objectively look back and know you have not only your all but you have them everything they ever wanted and ultimately one day it just doesn’t matter anymore. My ex was incredibly mean during our break up and none of it made any sense. It still doesn’t with the exception of the realization he just wasn’t willing to prioritize a relationship.. I’ve gone through all the motions of listing why I’m better off etc etc and like I said healing isn’t linear it comes and goes.. but if love was truly there for you and your ex it will take time. It’s so easy to feel like man fuck them for hurting me and breaking my heart but you just have to do what you have to do to get by each moment. I ended up reaching out to my ex because I knew he never would .. I gave it months and months for him to miss me and want me back and I just knew in my heart that even if he ever felt those ways he’d never reach out.. even if he felt he made a mistake he would never.. some people are just like that. So I bit the bullet and reached out. Knowing ultimately that even if he didn’t reply, I had tried.. and I didn’t want to live with the what if’s anymore. He ended up responding right away. We just have to do what we have to do.. healing isn’t a one size fits all approach.

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