I'll be brutally honest, but I really couldn't stop thinking about you. So why didn't I just talk to you in person and get to know you, like a normal person? Well, it's not because I didn't want to do that. Even though I don't consider myself normal, I'm not that much of a weirdo. I totally wanted to talk to you, but there was no way I was going to, because of the ethical bounds of my job. It would have been so inappropriate for me to pursue you romantically while in that leadership role I was in. I'm not a professor or lecturer or anything, but I was a facilitator for a workshop, and my role was to be professional and in-charge. Just as it is inappropriate for a professor to be romantically involved with a current student, so too would it have been inappropriate for me to pursue you romantically, as a student enrolled in the workshop I was governing.
I couldn't do that to a person. I imagined myself as a student being romantically pursued by a trusted person in-charge, and it made me shudder. It's creepy and disturbing. You trust a person to be professional in completing their job, and they take advantage of the situation by romantically pursuing you? It's gross. The roles we were in were very clear: I was to simply help everyone with their math stuff. To clarify concepts and to play a supporting role in a mathematical education. I was also supposed to pass out worksheets too, but there was no way I was going to be a dick to you guys. Anyways, that was my job. Romantically pursuing a girl while acting in an official capacity is a violation of that role and a violation of the implicit trust between people on two sides of an education. I was expected to simply help people with their math, and nothing more.