The Letter Writer...(pre bloggish items)

crazy FOOOD girl ..ha...oopsie..Without getting defensive. saw that..ya.. It is hard sometimes not to get defensive . like someone is attacking you and you back up and defend yourself. I dunno. I get like that sometimes out of instinct. Around sex...sometimes ..like last week. It has gotten better as i bring up what is on my mind more and try to be honest with what i need...I think if i come from a place of honestly and love it is easier to step back from the defensiveness. Almost like i have to let that angry defensive side of me ...go...like sometimes when i feeel i am getting definsive and know it will not go well i make a ocnscious decision to let that side go..and i can come back not from a place of anger.. I think that was left for me t..that pin...to let me know you want to help me in your way just like i want to help you...

i appreciate that ..I see that..I acknolwedge that and want to say thank you.

just know that i am trying equally hard here to find my path just like i am tryin to find my path with us..what is the best most transparent and honest way forward for me to live the truest version of what i need. You are a rudder inside of me helping...helping me steer a course but not taking control of the ship..if that make sense..

Ok back from a walk. I will elave something later today once my phone charges. it died and it will lbe a test...rather than writing so much an audio ...sounds of my day..kind of feature...not me talking to u so much but just ride along..this reddit will be notes and quick thoughts ..and my bule..a blog for thoughts of what life is like around here.. i kinda think some times if and when i get old and ...lose my memory :( i oculd read at some point with a cup of tea :)...

peace friend...and thank you

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