This is not the first thing it has happened to me. Long long time ago I let someone I loved deeply slipped out of my hands and I regretted it for many many years. It took me a long time to get over it. A lot happened between then and now when this new girl happened to me. Just the same fun and same spirit but the most beautiful of all.

I am one of those who sometimes do not fully understand what they are doing until it has already happened : as if sleepwalking into making mistakes. Thats exactly what I did, I made mistakes and took weeks before I approached her.

I wish I had the courage, had put my mistakes on the side and approached her straight away without waiting and explained and told her the truth there and then. I did tell her all the truth finally but only on text messages. I was so saddened by me doing it twice in my life time, I ended up writing poem for her.

When I go on some apps to look for a date, it seems everyone in this world is looking for that someone special who will make them laugh, look after them, lean on their shoulders and love them forever but yet so many are alone. There is so much love in abundance in this world but yet people like me are not able to find their true love. Perhaps they all make mistakes : like I do.