i feel you. im in the exact same boat as you but what i stopped doing is caring about work. i barely put in any effort and let most things slide off my back. i was in therapy for a year due to work related complex ptsd. the longest i can keep a job is 3-6 months before i have a complete breakdown and quit on the spot. and yeah, i dont make good money(only $14 an hour at my current job which would probably be job #11) but i make enough to pay my bills and save, save, save, and what i do is plan a vacation once a year. i try to make these vacations as extravagant as possible. and yeah, i blow through most of my savings for these vacations and come back home with less than $100 in my bank account but i dont really care, i only have one life and i want to see the world! i use work as a tool to be able to do things i wanna do and yeah, im not using my money practically or saving for the future but after going to therapy and coming to terms with the reality of this world, i said “fuck it, we are all gonna die anyway” and am doing only what i want to do now(but also do try it do it responsibly.) dont beat yourself up, you got this and you are not a failure. make a goal, like a vacation, and stick to it. it makes going to work so much easier once you have a goal of what you want to do with your money.