Holy crap I don’t want to self diagnose myself but I may have this. For the past year or two I have taken thousands of pictures of myself literally daily (my face lol) because I felt like I look completely differently than I look in the mirror. I understand mirror is a reflection so it is different but it looks completely different then it became like I have to keep taking pictures in different lighting to see how I looked in each lighting. Whenever I’m in dark lighting that’s when I’m the most nervous because I look the most ugly and I’ve tied my looks to my avpd because I’m so ugly I can’t go anywhere I’m not good enough etc. someone will always make fun of me because of how hideous I am etc. no one will ever love me. That’s my thinking.