ive read tons of those threads before. i can reflect on it more, i will still conclude the same thing. i would rather not waste money just to do something when i could take that money and put it towards things i want to do. i already have hobbies. my life circumstances suck, and i cant afford those hobbies currently, and some of them are cheap. like nails. i like to do my nails. all my polishes are old and dried out/clumpy. nail polish is cheap. nail polish however is not a priority in my budget, no matter how cheap it is. hiking is the first one on the list of the thread you gave me. i dont have remotely decent shoes. i also dont even have sunscreen. i could buy those things, but i rather buy nail polish if im buying shit.

the issue here is you assumed there is something wrong with my boring life and i need to do more things. im perfectly content with my life. when i have money for things i actually want to do then i will do those things. until then i will use my money how it needs to be used.