I literally want to fucking die

I'm replying fast because I'm just copy pasting. Sorry if this is long.

I had my gallbladder out in September and have had problems since. My belly button keyhole incision won't heal. I've gone to walk in clinics, my family doctor, my surgeon, gotten 3 ultrasounds done, even gone to ER. It keeps pussing and bleeding all the time. I used antibiotic ointment for a few weeks and it helped a bit but then it started to get bad again. There is a red thing sticking out of my belly button, I've shown doctors and up close pictures as well but they don't think it's anything.

I went to my doctor on Friday asking for an annual physical, to look at my belly button again since the ointment didn't work, and a full blood test (for EVERYTHING). He obliged. Looked at my belly button and said there is probably an abscess and he'll book me another ultrasound. This will take a couple weeks to a couple months to get booked. I started feeling really bad pain the night before, so I told him about that too.

I've had gallstone "attacks" since I got my gallbladder out. They haven't batted an eye about it and said ultrasound doesn't see anything. I've completely changed my diet and have been extremely careful about how I treat my body because of this. I thought the pain I started feeling on Thursday night was this, but it went on into Friday and I've never had an attack go longer than an hour or two.

It has been progressively gotten worse. It now hurts to the point where I think I might have broken a rib on that right side. It hurts in the centre, the right upper abdomen, and the left lower abdomen. It hurts to breathe, it hurts to burp, cough, fart, move in certain ways, etc etc.

I'm scared to go to the ER because it's usually an 8 to 14 hour wait and I've gone several times in the past year and they haven't done shit.

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