LONG POST, ITS A NICE POST :) MOSTLY MY YEAR SUMMED UP. BF[18] ME[23] btw. It's been a hard year for me, i moved out of home for the first time in my life in February this year after my long term partner gave up on me in November 2014, I thought i would never ever get over it, and for 6 months i struggled....so hard but by the time he wanted me back i had moved on. I moved to the gold coast (Australia) and lived with my friend because he bought a new apartment, so i could stay there until i found my own rental house and a job. I am a gamer and so i made friends super easily when i started going to the internet cafe 2 minute walk down the road :P I got a job and met a gamer friend there too! (we eventually both got fired lol but stayed really close friends up until this day :D) And eventually in June i moved out with my new friends and an old best friend. But before that i met this lovely guy on a MOBA i played (cough league cough)... He was obviously younger than me, but sounded cute and funny...so funny.. at the time i was staying at another friends house until i moved, and was able to use his PC to play games with the new guy i just met through a mutual friend... we stayed up all night and listened to each others music and played games.. i asked for his number bluntly, because why not? im a grown ass woman haha. he said "easiest number in my life" and we then texted constantly when we weren't playing games together xD I eventually got a house and i moved in, in June. It sucked because i didn't have internet yet to play games or Skype my new found friend who i was beginning to crush on :P But he continued to text me everyday and i would hotspot my phone sometimes, and for a month we spoke ALOT by just text, and wracking up huge phone bills (hehe oops) but finally i had internet and we Skyped for a good couple of days before he said he had to talk to me seriously. :-) He said he liked me that night, and i said i liked him too but was confused because he is 18, i was 22 turning 23 and i felt as if people would look badly upon us even though nothing is wrong with it, and i also feared his inexperience since he had never dated anyone before me, he only came close to liking a girl who said she just wanted to be friends(but i still said yes to being his girlfriend :D) So there started my beautiful relationship. He lives a state away, which is only an hour by plane (20 hrs by car :((( ) and attends college for engineering, he is tall (imsupershort), handsome and smart af. June 22nd was the day we (think we) asked each other out (we didn't keep track haha silly us) But it has been pure bliss, we get along so well... laugh, play games etc. We have fallen asleep on Skype together every single day since then, no breaks... even when we feel we are too busy for each other during day we always sleep together at night, its our release and we talk so freely at the end of the day. I love him. :') We have had GIANT roadblocks and cold feet, so don't worry we have experienced the bad as well, we have nearly broken up just because we don't know where life is going or if the distance will hurt us... But we MET irl for the first time in November (my birthday week :D) He stayed for 7 days and it was amazing! We hugged at the airport and pretty much stared at each other the whole ride home and made jokes the whole bus/tram ride. He made the move to hold my hand and man was it great...especially since im super shy...he's so cute. We got home and he met my housemates (11pm at nightlol) and my dogs and he lied down and he kissed me... (won't let out anymore information than that haha) But that first night was amazing :') i still couldn't believe i could hear him breathing and talking and....i could...s-spoon him... ;DDD haha. I had to work 4/7 days so that sucked but i had him there by my side everyday after work he would walk 20 minutes to the tram to pick me up and walk home with me <3 it was amazing....then we would hang out and go to dinner or play games...or hug or i would just stare at him because i couldn't get enough. After the 7 days i had to take him to the airport which sucked... him and my best friend were both flying home on the same day and i had to say goodbye to them both :( my friend left and then i stayed with my boyfriend for another 2 hours before he left...we ate food but i was barely hungry.. i couldn't eat and tears kept welling up in my eyes... i kept hearing his voice in my head from the night before when we cried in each others arms... he said i shouldn't cry, he doesn't ever want me to be sad and it made him cry and he said he didn't want to leave. I remember at the last second before he had to show his ticket i kissed him and hugged him and by that time my eyes were pouring water, and i just walked away and didn't look back...i couldn't... the love of my life was leaving and i couldn't handle it. I sat on a chair and stared out the window until i saw his plane fly off.. and then waited until he msged me to say he had arrived safe. That day i didn't stop tearing up until i got home (2 hr public transport crying, rip) and he called me for 10 mins and asked if i was okay and that he misses me and we will talk when he got home...which we did :) For a whole 1-2 weeks i cried nearly every day/night and couldn't eat, it was hard and weird.. because he was confused afterwards if he wanted to stay in an LDR because it was hard on me, and he hates me being hurt.. but we stayed strong and we are still happy and laughing til this day, he now puts his cam on for me everyday while we play WoW and i have mine on as well at nighttime when we watch "Running man" before we go to sleep, we love knowing the other person is there... and he loves it when i call him every morning before work even though the silly head pretty much falls asleep on the phone anyhow haha. He is super busy this Christmas because his family is very big and likes to celebrate alot and also busy for new years etc, I was going to visit but had no funds plus he is busy with family so i wouldn't feel comfortable interrupting that since i haven't met them yet :P (Can't wait to eventually) I'm very lonely this year because i moved 2 hr drive from my whole family and i will only be seeing my mum on Christmas day afternoon, and then thats it for the holidays, i'm just working and being alone besides when the bae is free. But my point is, ALOT has happened in everyone's lives, things happen, and even though i have had some really rough fucking months, believe me rofl, even though i am ALONE, i feel happy when i hear him laughing and joking with his family over Skype in the background. Just knowing he is happy makes me happy, and i hope that one day i will be able to visit his family and be laughing in the background too. :') I just needed to tell everyone, People may seem like they are ignorant or distant this Christmas but it's probably just them being busy, dont be sad if they can't make alot of time right now, just chill, be happy they are in your lives in some way. because one day Christmas will be all about you BOTH. let them be with their family for now, or immerse yourselves in your own family (Or pets :D) Remember Distance is only temporary! :') STAY POSITIVE LDR'S LOVE IS BEAUTIFUL....MERRY CHRISTMAS! i left ALOT out because this is a giant wall of text rofl and there's so much BAD GRAMMAR AHHHH.. if you read it im glad you can know a little about me, even though i'm a random i think it's nice. :'D TLDR; I had a crazy year, i will be alone this Christmas, but love my bf to bits and can't wait for the future. TRYING to stay positive and so should you :D